where are my words

It is strange how words work. I feel like when I need them most, I fail to find them. When my brain is in overdrive, they are whirring around and I cannot snatch the ones I need. Writing is my expression. A way of taming the runaway thoughts and pulling them together. My process. The […]

old scars becoming new fears

Pepper is authentic.  Fully, unabashedly herself.  Her drum beats differently and she stomps her feet to its rhythm with gusto.  This has always been her operating state and it is mix of fear and inspiration for me to watch. Being eight is different than being three and it seems the world is less forgiving and […]

an opportunity for self care

Sometimes there is an opportunity, a decision to make, that has the potential to be life changing. A kind of reality shift that makes everything, from the minutiae of daily routines to the seasonal changes different. Fourteen months ago, life changed drastically for us. Thor and I made the decision, in a very non-me like […]

perfectionism

I am a type A personality.  I am fastidiously organized and attentive to the minutest of details.  Multitasking comes easily and I enjoy pulling together of all the snapshots to create the big picture.  I can create the vehicle with many moving parts. I see it.  I reach it.  The threshold. I hold myself to […]

bravery

As the girls grow older, it becomes more clear just how much of parenting is leading by example. Sometimes it is modeling.  Sometimes it is narratives. And sometimes it is definable actions that become rooted memories. For a child, like Pepper, who needs to learn, practice and continually hone her skills of emotional regulation and […]

the choice of information

I am a firm believer and potential preacher of the notion that positive energy is as infectious as negative energy. But, I also attest to the idea that positive energy is compounding in a slower growing process than a hit of negativity. Positive energy builds and blooms. Negativity is like a guillotine. It is swift […]