anger

Anger is an emotion I rarely express. It isn’t something I grew up around and when I did hear it, it scared me. As a child, a stern voice or furrowed brow was more than sufficient to express discontent with what I had done. Little was needed to remedy my behavior beyond the vague notion […]

montessori love

Seven years ago we decided on a Montessori preschool for Pepper. It was sort of a happenstance situation. My belly was full of V and my impending maternity leave was inevitably going to become permanent. This luxury made it possible to choose an option for Pepper that was not required. No longer daycare to cover […]

old scars becoming new fears

Pepper is authentic.  Fully, unabashedly herself.  Her drum beats differently and she stomps her feet to its rhythm with gusto.  This has always been her operating state and it is mix of fear and inspiration for me to watch. Being eight is different than being three and it seems the world is less forgiving and […]

perfectionism

I am a type A personality.  I am fastidiously organized and attentive to the minutest of details.  Multitasking comes easily and I enjoy pulling together of all the snapshots to create the big picture.  I can create the vehicle with many moving parts. I see it.  I reach it.  The threshold. I hold myself to […]

bravery

As the girls grow older, it becomes more clear just how much of parenting is leading by example. Sometimes it is modeling.  Sometimes it is narratives. And sometimes it is definable actions that become rooted memories. For a child, like Pepper, who needs to learn, practice and continually hone her skills of emotional regulation and […]

the choice of information

I am a firm believer and potential preacher of the notion that positive energy is as infectious as negative energy. But, I also attest to the idea that positive energy is compounding in a slower growing process than a hit of negativity. Positive energy builds and blooms. Negativity is like a guillotine. It is swift […]

seeing the real world

We are living the city life. As big and bold as the “city of subdued excitement” can offer. But, to children who have always called the rural county home, it is a change. A big change. Our daily drives used to be long and tedious as we left the open fields and turned onto the […]