old scars becoming new fears

Pepper is authentic.  Fully, unabashedly herself.  Her drum beats differently and she stomps her feet to its rhythm with gusto.  This has always been her operating state and it is mix of fear and inspiration for me to watch. Being eight is different than being three and it seems the world is less forgiving and […]

bravery

As the girls grow older, it becomes more clear just how much of parenting is leading by example. Sometimes it is modeling.  Sometimes it is narratives. And sometimes it is definable actions that become rooted memories. For a child, like Pepper, who needs to learn, practice and continually hone her skills of emotional regulation and […]

being present

Things are truly in flux right now. We are in this awkwardly uncomfortable gray space. We sold our house last week (breathe a big long sigh of relief with me now….) and have made the choice to move into a temporary rental for the time being. The housing market is a seller’s dream, but a […]

meeting it with love

The reality of parenting Pepper.  Last week was drama camp. Something we’ve been talking about for 4+ weeks and she has been eagerly anticipating. All the preparation was in place. So, Monday, the first day arrived. Giddiness. Excitement. Eager anticipation. She was bubbling with abundant energy. What should have been a short three hour respite […]

summer days

These are the warm days with handfuls of dandelion bouquets given with sincerity and abundant love. V is done saying “bella boon” for balloon. But, thankfully, still uses “ornicoon” for unicorn. Maybe she isn’t growing up too fast. Pepper has found chapter books. Our spring break was spent with day after day at the library […]

savoring the moment

Pepper has never been a snuggler. There was a free spirited independence that began in the womb. A stubborn streak that was bred down deep. Nursing sessions seemed to be for sustenance only and there was rarely an instance of milk-drunk cuddling. I should have savored the snuggles that were so few. I should have […]