anger

Anger is an emotion I rarely express. It isn’t something I grew up around and when I did hear it, it scared me. As a child, a stern voice or furrowed brow was more than sufficient to express discontent with what I had done. Little was needed to remedy my behavior beyond the vague notion […]

montessori love

Seven years ago we decided on a Montessori preschool for Pepper. It was sort of a happenstance situation. My belly was full of V and my impending maternity leave was inevitably going to become permanent. This luxury made it possible to choose an option for Pepper that was not required. No longer daycare to cover […]

such a good boy

Two years ago we said goodbye to the best dog we could imagine ever having. T lived a full 15-1/2 years. So long for a big boy of 85-pounds. He was our first kid. Our first combined love. And, our first companion through life’s largest milestones. Condensed into one lifetime. Our first home – a […]

old scars becoming new fears

Pepper is authentic.  Fully, unabashedly herself.  Her drum beats differently and she stomps her feet to its rhythm with gusto.  This has always been her operating state and it is mix of fear and inspiration for me to watch. Being eight is different than being three and it seems the world is less forgiving and […]

an opportunity for self care

Sometimes there is an opportunity, a decision to make, that has the potential to be life changing. A kind of reality shift that makes everything, from the minutiae of daily routines to the seasonal changes different. Fourteen months ago, life changed drastically for us. Thor and I made the decision, in a very non-me like […]

perfectionism

I am a type A personality.  I am fastidiously organized and attentive to the minutest of details.  Multitasking comes easily and I enjoy pulling together of all the snapshots to create the big picture.  I can create the vehicle with many moving parts. I see it.  I reach it.  The threshold. I hold myself to […]

bravery

As the girls grow older, it becomes more clear just how much of parenting is leading by example. Sometimes it is modeling.  Sometimes it is narratives. And sometimes it is definable actions that become rooted memories. For a child, like Pepper, who needs to learn, practice and continually hone her skills of emotional regulation and […]